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celluloidheart) wrote2010-09-28 10:29 am
celluloidheart) wrote2010-09-28 10:29 am
Awake and Screaming
I woke up that morning with a mess of emotions. My mind immediately took inventory of my situation: One part-time job with constantly decreasing hours, one apartment full of bedbugs and cockroaches, one dad five months away from retirement, and a wish to be in Austin for Fantastic Fest. Summary: I was nowhere near where I wanted to be.
And then, everything crystalized. In that moment, I knew what I needed to do. Suddenly, my dreams became goals. I had a year to get a new job, get us out of the apartment, and get myself to Fantastic Fest 2011. I also gained a sense of determination. This was going to happen. It just was.
A few days later, I decided to keep a journal again. And here we are.
And then, everything crystalized. In that moment, I knew what I needed to do. Suddenly, my dreams became goals. I had a year to get a new job, get us out of the apartment, and get myself to Fantastic Fest 2011. I also gained a sense of determination. This was going to happen. It just was.
A few days later, I decided to keep a journal again. And here we are.